My English friends

now back again after 5 months

2007-05-17T11:15:00.000+02:00

hope you have not forgotten me
I still exist
What shall I write?

2006-12-23T15:59:00.002+01:00

Here are Heidi and Christina and we wish you a merry Christmas

Evening prayer

2006-10-02T21:31:00.000+02:00

I just came back from the
evening prayer.
I have it together
with some African friends

Note in my diary

2006-10-01T21:37:00.000+02:00

Note in my diary:

To be permitted to hang around 10 minutes at the PC,
I first have to work for half an hour
(homework/kitchen/arrange my office etc.)

Oh Lord help me to become healthy again

2006-09-11T20:43:00.001+02:00

photo of father praying for his sleeping child

E V E - N I N G R O U T I N E

2006-09-09T21:52:00.000+02:00

I have just shined my sink!
now:
EVERY evening:
from today on:

1) shining my sink!...
1) shining my sink!...
1) shining my sink!...

Next duty which will follow is:
2) preparing my clothing for tomorrow...

1,-,1,1,-,1,1,1,-,1,1,1,1,-,1,1,1,1,1,-,1,1,1,1,1,1,-
1+2,1,1+2,1+2,1,1+2,1+2,1+2,1,1+2,1+2,1+2,1+2,1,1+2,1+2,1+2,1+2,1+2,1,1+2,1+2,1+2,1+2,1+2,1+2,1,

...just to get the habit
in preparing every day
something for the new day

http://www.flylady.net/pages/begin_babysteps.asp

Holidays over

2006-08-31T22:00:00.000+02:00

It's August and I am back again.
My life is interesting I could tell a lot.
I am glad.
My life is changing

back in August

2006-07-03T03:07:00.000+02:00

Holidays - will be back in August

I am so sorry

2006-07-01T22:05:00.000+02:00

I am so sorry
I havent visited my blog
for such a long time.

Cause the Romanian Irina
is no longer there
I was so sad that I stopped blogging here.

But perhaps I will start again
because you all gave me so much.

I am not sure whether I will re-find
all your blogger addresses

because most of the time
I only clicked the links
on Irina's page
and there I went...

So, that's a short comment
on my actual blogger situation

Good luck for everybody of you

Proverbs 31

2006-06-09T21:57:00.000+02:00

Proverbs 31

The good housewife

I want to be such a good housewife

in all aspects of my life

just to be zealous,
full of eager and
faithful

2006-05-10T23:54:00.000+02:00

Jesus' Abundant Love

2006-05-09T23:53:00.000+02:00

What is most important,
more important than
learning upto excess?
Treating my classmates with a loving behaviour

(my English is perhaps not so good
but I hope you understand what I mean...)

Love is not learning in school for oneself
but for the others or
for the patients

be relaxed...be zealous in being kind...

2006-05-04T23:05:00.000+02:00

I am totally sad
because this afternoon and evening
I didn't manage to do a lot of things...

I helped my father with the computer
I had a discussion with a handicapped
I bought a birthday card for my sister
I cleaned the kitchen at school
I ordered my files for the lessons

but today I didn't have the time

to do what I want, what I like
or even to think over
how long I would like to do this and that

Today I just only did what others wanted
I did it with my whole heart
but in the end I am very very sad

I hope that tomorrow
I will have enough time
to catch up with all this
(though I HAVE to go to the market place
to buy something which my mother likes...
...but perhaps I will do that next week.
I think that would be better).

and that on Sunday
I will find a way to be
together with my friends

2006-04-21T19:52:00.000+02:00

Thoroughly

I will water thoroughly

as if I was each little flower

and plant

I will water
so thoroughly
so that they will speak to me:
enough, enough

and I will answer:

don't worry,
the water will
quickly run away

2006-04-21T19:48:00.000+02:00

Just returned from the main street
where the Spanish man is selling his goods
(half an hour ago... was just surfing)

I have given him the christian text from the Internet
and I hope that he will be blessed just like that
and in reading it

Now it is 19.47 pm and I will start watering the flowers in the garden
Hope that I will be ready at the latest at 20.47 pm

Hello again

2006-04-21T15:51:00.000+02:00

Again chaos
and little time

I came back at ten to two
now have slept 2 hours
now it is ten to 4

I had forgotten my doctor's chipcard
now I have to drive there again
(till 6 pm I have time)
but it is so quickly 6 pm...

and I still am looking for a christian book
because I have met a Spanish speaking seller
to whom I want to give that book

...I have looked in all the house for that christian book

well, I now will print out a christian text in Spanish from the Internet for him...

still chaos and little time...

2006-04-21T11:35:00.000+02:00

Well, made my bed
and made a telephone call to France
because friends of mine
don't get their pension from France.
Nobody on the line

I am so sad.......
chaos
and
little
time

I will leave now
Good bye
till later

2006-04-21T11:11:00.000+02:00

Now I washed my hair,
I have eaten some dry crunchy bread
(because my stomach is a bit ill)
and I have brushed my teeth.
At the moment I am drinking some
healthy tea

I just read a note that I have to go to a doctor's today to fetch a paper for another doctor to whom I will go on Monday.
So they told me that I can come till 12.30 pm
I hate this because now I only have one hour left,
journey included

But what? Hated or not hated... I must do it!

I still have to make my bed
so the chaos will be a little bit less.

11.32 am

wash my hair

2006-04-21T10:36:00.000+02:00

I will immediately stand up and wash my hair
10.35 am

Friday 10.30

2006-04-21T10:30:00.000+02:00

Oh how I do still have plenty of time till Monday...
but I know the case:
Normally I waste the time
and in the end
there is no more time left
and there are still so many things undone...

Thinking about what I may do first

2006-04-21T10:17:00.000+02:00

My parents have left home
for one week.
They have just gone now.

My "office", kitchen and bathroom
are not quite nice in order
so I need to seek my school-homework-copies
and to make some order

so I have to do something on it

perhaps by the help of "flylady"

I have promised my mother
to go to the market today
and buy some shoes

and to change some clothing
which I bought
but which are too vast

but I have to wash my hair first
and eat a bit
and brush my teeth

On Monday school starts again
It is now Friday, 10.25 am

Happy Easter

2006-04-16T23:21:00.000+02:00

A happy Easter-Monday
to you all and
Good night

Thinking of you all

2006-04-15T23:08:00.000+02:00

Frohe Ostern!!!

I am thinking of you all

4 days I went late to bed
and today I saw the consequences.

So that's why I stop writing earlier today!

Good night

11.04.2006 10.23 p.m.

Frohe Ostern!

I wanna be the first

2006-04-09T21:20:00.000+02:00

Well, I have to come forward...
I have to catch up...
I have to be at the top...

Today I can not go that early to bed
because I have to keep the lights on
for a while in the evening

So I am glad that tomorrow evening
my parents will come back
from a prolongued week-end

I have decided that I will go
very early to bed
so that I might wake up
with a lot of strength

that I will see
that I catch up
from day to day
and not that I am behind

because during the last week
I went late to bed
every morning a bit more tired
a bit more late
and a bit more the feeling
that I don't manage it at home
...school yes, but at home not.

And to be happy at school
it is also necessary
to be organized at home...
so homework will also
be organized!!!

is it really that?

2006-04-07T20:15:00.000+02:00

I always hoped that I may be able
to change my character

Now in the school for becoming a
logopaedian therapist
we really learn that...

it is not so easy...
every day is a
challenge!

School is nice

2006-04-05T21:27:00.000+02:00

It is much work
and I have no time
but it is nice

because I have the prespective
that I will be able
to help handicapped people

Tomorrow I will move

2006-03-16T22:48:00.000+01:00

...after 5 years of living down here

(at the moment, Friday, 13.18 p.m. I only can edit my blog but have no other access - so I cannot see whether anyone has answered.

Perhaps my computer will not function until in two weeks, because nobody of our family knows anything about W-LAN-Router... = Internet connection without wire)

Ciao

2006-03-14T22:18:00.000+01:00

I had a dream...
I had a dream of my new school.

It was very impressioning:
they accepted students
which came from other schools
and which didn't succeed
in that other schools
but who were very talented.

They had exercises to develop
creativity
and to develop moving
as if you would dance
but you did it as sports
on your own or with two persons.

They had a very big school building
with many green plants.
The teachers and pupils
were very friendly

and I quickly found friends.
The lessons were not too difficult
so that I could really go on.

I really like thinking on that dream
and
I hope that those things
only those which will be good for me
will come into
reality

visited a friend

2006-03-12T23:43:00.000+01:00

today i visited a friend
we spoke a lot about her past
and i could explain her a lot
concerning what i had learned
with our new psychology-teacher

it was a very deep
and fruitful
conversation

Choose - what?

2006-03-12T02:01:00.000+01:00

Today I visited
perhaps for the last time
my logopaedian patient.

I was very sad.
But what shall I choose?
School and learning
and afterwards earning

or helping just now
without know-how?

I think I will choose the first
even if that means
to stop visiting
my patient

how nice

2006-03-07T22:14:00.000+01:00

Today I was in the logopaedian hospital and visited my patient for a short time to give him some flowers which he likes much.
I met a young boy who is handicapped, too, whom I met when I first visited that hospital and when - at that time there - I didn't yet know whether I could work there or not.
I remembered today all the thoughts that were in my head on that day.
I remembered how the thought came to my mind to make a professional education in that area because I liked so much the work and because I wanted just that education 20 years ago...
and I was taken by the school
and everything will start on
03rd April 2006
Thanks God,
I am very
very
thankful
and
glad

right way in life

2006-03-05T02:55:00.000+01:00

Until now I always was looking
for the right way in life
within the next weeks

my life will change

enormously.

amazing grace

2006-03-02T21:18:00.000+01:00

You can hear the song: amazing grace
and read it in 15 languages:

amazing grace

that saved a wretch like me

I once was lost

but now I'm found

by my redeemer Jesus Christ

What grace

2006-03-02T21:15:00.000+01:00

Song:

What grace...
God gave us his son...
What grace...
God gave us his son...
What grace...
God gave us his son...

What grace, what grace,
God gave us his son!
What grace, what grace,
God gave us his son!

2) What grace... He died on the cross!

3) What grace... He's coming again!

I'm so glad

2006-03-02T21:14:00.000+01:00

Song:

I'm so glad...
Jesus lives in me...
I'm so glad...
Jesus lives in me...
I'm so glad...
Jesus lives in me...

Singing: Glory, Halleluja...
Jesus lives in me!

ill but happy

2006-03-02T20:10:00.000+01:00

I am ill
and have to stay in bed
but I am very very happy.
Within some sixteen days I will be in my new flat.
Within some 32 days it will be my first school day

- yes, trusting is an art

2006-02-18T23:43:00.000+01:00

the best...
often is the more difficult way

blind obedience?
No.
That is not the way
a heavenly father
explains the facts
to his children
(only in exceptional cases)

Come to the father
and explain him your case
come to the father
he might only erase

if for this you ask him
and make no game of gym
but rest severe in heart

yes, trusting is a
heavenly art

an art which you can adore
other things you want no more
because he entirely fills your heart

- yes, trusting is an art

it's not always the best

2006-02-17T22:58:00.000+01:00

When having finished my first
professional education
I had fallen into love
concerning a young man
who wasn't exactly my age

but it was not 100% sure
whether he was the right person...

Now, twenty years later
I am still a little bit sad
but in the bottom of my heart

I am lucky, happy, glad
that all that didn't work out

He DEFINITELY had been the wrong person!!!!!!!
(from today's character of mine)

if a shy person starts being aggressive

2006-02-16T23:06:00.000+01:00

"if a shy person starts being aggressive unto his therapist,
it's the first positive sign"
(quotation of my philosophy teacher)

I made this experience with a shy young boy.

God I thank you
help me to accept his change
help me that I may change
looking forward to new changes
of my patient
and
of myself

Today was a nice day

2006-02-11T19:33:00.000+01:00

Today we learned a lot at the school for logopaedists and in the evening we had a voice performance programm which was very interesting and showed how many possibilities we have in using our voice:
singing, reading, speaking, screaming, whisteling, breathing, crying and so on...
and everything was like a little piece of art, choir or theatre.

yesterday found nice blog

2006-02-09T22:59:00.000+01:00

Yesterday evening/night I found a blog in German that encouraged me very much. It spoke about some 30 aspects of everyday's life of developping one's personality
and there were other themes
the whole blog carries the title: "Time to live"

click on the blue words "Zeit zu leben" on the left side of their homepage.

the water of life

2006-02-09T22:58:00.000+01:00

Since 1987 I am longing for a life which will fulfill the longing of my heart up to its bottom.
Don't know whether you understand me...Yes, you probably do, don't you?
Perhaps this new area of my life: change of profession, change of home, change of...don't know what...
But again I am really longing for that life -
perhaps the desire of my heart will be fulfilled?
I want to do everything to go in that direction.

I am thursty for life

2006-02-09T00:02:00.000+01:00

In the Apocalypse it is written:

Whoever is thursty...
that he may come...
and drink of the living water...
without paying any money...

God, give me this water...
here I come...
ready to drink of the living water...
ok. I am ready to stop trying to work out something, to stop trying to pay it

I will accept this water as a free gift from you, my loving God

Certificate ok , but...

2006-01-31T21:40:00.000+01:00

Hurra!
I obtained the last certificate
Now everything will start

but

there is still
one thing
which God yet hasn't answered
but which also is enormously important
for that new way

but I hope God will answer
perhaps at the latest in two months
when school starts

I trust HIM
he is trustworthy
he knows my heart,
yes, he does

Thankful........................................

2006-01-26T23:25:00.000+01:00

1st certificate obtained today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1 hour of check up
2 hours of answering 500 questions

Now comes the second certificate on
31st January
we will see whether it's
God's will

Accept also a "No"

2006-01-25T22:46:00.000+01:00

Today we had the bible meeting in our church.
The pastor told us to accept the will of God, even if he says "no" to our way.

It is not so easy to do this but I want to go into the examination of tomorrow saying:

"Yes, Lord, even if the doctor will say: I will not give you the positive certificate - yes, Lord and: thank you.

I will accept a "no"... cry, cry... but I want to accept without crying,
I want to go into the examination saying: Yes Lord, even if it is a "no"..."

I think I even will go into the examination expecting a "no" -

so I will be very surprised and thankful if it is not so

I was accepted for studying but...

2006-01-22T22:44:00.000+01:00

but...
...I still have to pass two medical tests:
the one I mentioned in my last post
and another one

Both are rather difficult to obtain

because in both areas I have a

medical defect

and then the school must accept these two medical certificates

o God, help me,

please !!!

first certificate was negative

2006-01-20T23:03:00.000+01:00

Today I received the promised certificate.
The doctor had said:
There is the small defect
but you can become a logopaedist nevertheless.

His partner wasn't thinking like that.
He pushed him to write a negative certificate.

Now if the school wants to take me,
I will go to another doctor
and ask whether he can write a positive certificate
mentioning this defect
but allowing me to practise this job nevertheless
like the other doctor told me in the beginning.

For 1 million habitants only two doctors of this type is little
but I will pray and trust in God

exam

2006-01-19T23:29:00.000+01:00

Yesterday I had the exam:

There are three points of which I am not sure whether I will succeed in the exam:

1) I do not yet know the results from the different tests that I have passed: music, speach, writing a report, commenting therapy, personal dialogue(was good I think), singing, reading, clapping, shouting, breathing... I hope I haven't forgotten anything...

2) my vocal chords overlap a bit

3) my frenulum of tongue is a bit too short

These are little defects since my birth

Well, let us pray and see
how God leads...
If it is the right way,
He will straighten the way
nevertheless.

Wednesday

2006-01-13T01:26:00.000+01:00

Wednesday I will have a personal conversation
throughout the whole day
at the school for logopaedists

One week later I will get the result

a) not succeeded
or
b) I may start the 3-years education